I am proud to be able to say that I am a
Confessional Anglican. I treat the
39 Articles as my confession of faith, their sound and solid interpretation of
the Biblical faith inspires and guides me.
I believe that Confessional Anglicanism, especially of the sort that
dominated the church in the pre-Caroline era, is the best presentation of the
Biblical faith that exists. I did not
always think this, and I was not raised in a way that would lead me to see
things this way. Instead, I have been
taken on a long journey through many different church experiences. God has met, blessed, and grown me in each
and every one of them - but compared to the truths I now know, I now feel, they
have been but trickling streams compared to the Niagara Falls.
Charles Spurgeon
once said "It is a great thing to
begin the Christian life by believing good solid doctrine. Constant change of
creed is sure loss. If a tree has to be
taken up two or three times a year, you will not need to build a very large
loft in which to store the apples. When
people are always shifting their doctrinal principles, they are not likely to bring
forth much fruit to the glory of God. It
is good for young believers to begin with a firm hold upon those great fundamental
doctrines which the Lord has taught in his Word." (C.H. Spurgeon: a defence of Calvinism p.1)
I have
changed my 'creed' a number of times.
Each time I did I always had issues, I always had reservations - and I
never truly bore much fruit to the glory of God. I no longer have such reservations, my faith
is firmly planted, well watered, well fertilised, it is growing. Fruit is coming forth such as I could never
have imagined. Never has God been more
glorified in my life than He is under the creed of the 39 Articles - gospel
based, creedaly catholic, evangelical to the core, Protesting the errors of
ritualism and works based righteousness with equal vigour, confidently Reformed,
and yet Biblically free in expression. I
am convinced with a conviction I have never had before, I am certain with a
certainty I have never been able to express, I am resolute with a concrete resolution
- I am safe, I am secure, I am blessed here in the garden of the best (but by
no means perfect) expression of The Faith yet expressed: Classical Confessional
Anglicanism.
As I said,
this was not always the case.
"Never has God been more glorified in my life than He is
under the creed of the 39 Articles"
I grew up in
a small village in East Yorkshire in the United Kingdom. I was baptised at the
local Church of England church - St. Albans.
I must confess that I have a peculiarly poor memory of my younger
life. My Dad was in hospital a lot
during my youth and so my Mum raised me with a lot of help from my Great Aunt
Essie, and my Grandparents. My Mum took
me to the local church each Sunday or at least occasionally - the only thing I
remember though is being given sweets and getting very bored during the
intercessions. My Great Aunt was a Baptist
prayer warrior who helped out with the Billy Graham crusades in the UK. She would often read me Bible stories and I
know that she held me up in prayer more than I can imagine but I cannot recall
or discern any real impact she has had on my faith journey beyond those prayers
being answered in abundance.
Whilst at Primary
School the parents of one of the teaching assistants started up a church in the
Village Hall. Meg and David along with
their daughter Melanie led a lively, child friendly, evangelical church. She got more kids into church and weekly
Bible study than anyone in the area.
Regretfully they had to close down the church due to hate and vitriol
from the members of other more established churches who disliked the
free-church and felt it was stealing their children and radicalising them. I am certain it is from Meg and David that I
gained my early conviction that the Bible is the true and infallible word of
God. After they closed down I began going to a kids
bible group at the Anglican vicarage in the nearby town as Sylvia the Vicars wife
of that place was the Reader-in-Charge of our parishes. It was during this time I got confirmed by
the bishop for the first time (!).
At the age
of 14 my Great Aunt died. I never
stopped believing in a God, I just decided that He was a mean bully who I was
better off without. To be honest my
conception of God at the time was not really very advanced and was little more
than a big guy with a beard on the throne of heaven. For the next two and a half years I avoided
church like the plague and often went out of my way to spite The Big Guy
Upstairs.
Then, at the
age of 16, I went to bed one night certain and set on my future as an
archaeologist and God came to me. When I
awoke I knew beyond all doubt I had to cast aside my dreams of being the next Indiana
Jones (or rather Time Team Central America) and become a Minister serving a God
I was far from well pleased with and knew little about. Naturally, I had to start going back to
church! I started going back to the
local Anglican Church, St. Albans, and became a server there whilst bombarding
the minister and her husband with theological questions. I also began reading on the history of the
church - which led me to an interest in Eastern Orthodoxy.
At the age of 18 I went to Oxford University. I had chosen
to do my undergraduate degree in theology at Wycliffe Hall (a
conservative evangelical Anglican training college) for the sole and only
reason that it was the only Church of England college that undergrads could go
to. My church experience so far had been
a little while in an evangelical free-church and most of my time in a rural Anglican
broad church with an evangelical leaning minister but without, memory serving,
much of that coming through in the services themselves.
At Oxford
the first church I began attending was St. Aldates - a charismatic evangelical
Anglican church. To be honest I enjoyed
it but found it very difficult. Instead
I moved away from evangelicalism and began attending both the Russian and the
Greek Orthodox Churches, reading vast amounts of Eastern Orthodox literature,
and taking retreats at the Orthodox Monastery of St. John the Baptist in Essex. I loved the beauty of the liturgy, the
perceived link to the ancient church, the rich theology. But the salve of the gospel did not reach my
heart, I continued in my soul down a path of darkness. I did not bear spiritual
fruit but rather for all my attempted asceticism, my rituals, and longing for a
deeper experience of Christ in prayer, I became more and more distant from God.
"I loved the beauty of the Eastern Orthodox liturgy, the
perceived link to the ancient church, the rich theology."
In the mean
time my ordination plans were progressing for ordination in the Church of
England - this being the church I chose for little more reason than I was
raised in it and was English. Because of
this, and growing discontent with the popular presentation of Orthodoxy not
being the reality I was experiencing, I had to start attending Anglican
churches more. I began to attend Pusey
House on a weekly and often daily basis - Pusey House being about as
Anglo-Catholic as one can get. I also
attended St. Giles which was high church leaning broad church, and The Queen's
College chapel. I kept
on attending St. Aldates on and off and occasionally went to a Korean
free-church. I did not attend Wycliffe
Chapel. I made many friends at Pusey
House, went to the monastery of Bec in Northern France with them, I went more than
once to their Easter Triduum away at Ascot Priory, I served weekly at morning
Mass, and I occasionally acolyted on Sundays.
I was part of a beautiful expression of Anglo-Catholicism and a joyful
community.
"I was part of a beautiful expression of Anglo-Catholicism
and a joyful community... but my life changed in March
2011 when I went on mission to Uganda and I was confronted with the pure,
unadulterated, glorious grace of the Gospel."
I finished my Finals exams and was accepted
by the Archbishop of York to train for ministry on the condition that I stayed on
to do my studies at Wycliffe and also weekly attended a particular church led
by a fantastic guy who I have grown to have a huge love and respect for. At
this time in my life I still would not have called myself 'evangelical' in
anything except my view of biblical studies.
This all began to change as the weight of truly caring for peoples souls
bore more and more on my heart - a heart which was itself so heavy, dark, and
filled with condemnation and a feeling of inadequacy. My life changed in March 2011 when I went on
mission to Uganda and I was confronted with the pure, unadulterated, glorious
grace of the Gospel. My chains were
gone, I'd been set free. The preaching of the gospel of grace and the
power of the Cross of Christ in our lives became my number one priority - it is
the only thing that matters because it is the only thing that truly changes the
lives of the people both now and into eternity.
It was only
now that my views changed. The lack of
gospel in the broad church seemed to undermine the whole endeavour, church for
the people I spoke to seemed little more than a holy club of culture to make
people grow up to be 'good people'. In
the Anglo-Catholic wing of the church the lack of gospel was replaced by
rituals and the worshipping of things other than God whilst so many of the
congregation I spoke to knew little to nothing of the faith or the Bible. All
of these churches I was attending were shrinking, were dying.
"All of these churches I was attending were shrinking,
were dying"
This was in complete contrast to St.
Aldates, St. Ebbes, and St. Andrews - all evangelical Anglican churches which
were growing both numerically and in discipleship. My experiencing of God and the power of the
gospel in St. Aldates, the vibrancy and rich discipleship, the biblical
literacy, the testimonies of lives changed as each and every week more people came to Christ was astounding.
At my
ordination as Deacon in 2012 I was an evangelical and proud. I was not an Anglican and proud: the Church
of England was to me now little more than the best boat to fish from. On the day of the ordination I made vows along
the lines that I assented to and would accept the Historic Formulaires of the
Church of England - The 39 Articles, the BCP, and the Ordinal - as my guide and
as the true interpretation of the Scriptures.
For a number of nights after my ordination I slept little - I had made
powerful vows about which I knew little and believed little. I consider myself to be honest and to have integrity
but I felt that I had done myself a disservice.
I decided and resolved myself to the only honest course of action I personally
could mentally assent to: I would spend the next year studying the Historic
Formularies, the history of the English Reformation and the Anglican
Church. If at the end of that year I
felt that I could not with good conscience take the Historic Formularies as my
confession of faith then I would not go through with being ordained Priest in
the Church of England. Quite simply my
conscience and integrity would not allow me to lie and take such an oath falsely
- again.
"I was an evangelical and proud. I was not an Anglican and proud"
Over the
course of that year my life changed even more.
I discovered more and more not only the gospel of grace but also the
doctrines of grace. I came face to face
with the Reformers and their passions, their beliefs, their convictions - and I
became convinced that they were right, that they were led by the Holy Spirit in
a miraculous way. They were not perfect,
they did not get it all right, they made mistakes, but they were right on so
much and definitely on the right 'track'.
The Classical Anglicanism they spawned and led, the Anglicanism embodied
in the Articles and other Historic Formulaires, the Anglicanism enforced by
Reformation canon law, the Anglicanism expounded in the Homilies, was the best
presentation of the gospel, of the dignity of the church, of the biblical
ministry of the priest, and of the importance of right doctrine combined with
holy living that is available today. I
found a new home and dug my roots down deep in the writings of Cranmer, in the
Homilies, in the early Anglican divines, in their true spiritual successors - Parker,
Grindal, Trapp, Whitfield, Toplady, and Ryle (that is all to say I dug my roots
down deep in the right interpretation of the Holy Bible). My heart, my soul, my mind has been so
enriched by their godly wisdom and guidance that it is hard to describe. The very real dangers of what they, at times
with their very lives, opposed has become all the more apparent to me whilst
the glories of what they promoted have become all the more precious to me. The desperate need in the Church of England
and the wider Anglican Church for a new generation of Thomas Cranmers, of
George Whitfields, and John Charles Ryles rests heavy on my heart and I
intended to live my life in such as way as to be and achieve even only a
thousandth of the great things those giants of the truth did.
When I took my vows for the second time in 2013 as I was ordained a priest in the Church of England I did not consider myself 'Anglican' because I was English and baptised in an Anglican Church, I did not consider myself 'Anglican' because it was the best boat to fish from, I considered myself Anglican because I actually believed in the inheritance of faith laid out in the 39 Articles, in the BCP, and in the Ordinal. I was and am a Confessional Anglican. After taking those vows for the second time I slept like a log.
When I took my vows for the second time in 2013 as I was ordained a priest in the Church of England I did not consider myself 'Anglican' because I was English and baptised in an Anglican Church, I did not consider myself 'Anglican' because it was the best boat to fish from, I considered myself Anglican because I actually believed in the inheritance of faith laid out in the 39 Articles, in the BCP, and in the Ordinal. I was and am a Confessional Anglican. After taking those vows for the second time I slept like a log.
"I consider myself Anglican because I actually believed in
the inheritance of faith laid out in the 39 Articles, in the BCP, and in the
Ordinal."
It was wonderful reading about your journey of faith. Although I am a Reformed Baptist I have great respect for Confessional Anglicanism and what Anglicans did in church history!
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